It's Complicated

 

  The rope between war and peace has never been pleasant to walk on. One second, I see the blessings that come with the advancements of our day. And then rage stems through my veins when I see the ignorance of my generation (displays of ratchetness, etc.). For the past month it is as if I have been looking back at all of the learning experiences in my life. I am looking back not in shame or embarrassment. But looking back and acknowledging all of the snares and traps that I have escaped. Contrary to most of my peers I am proud to admit that I was raised differently. I came out okay in the end. Somehow or somewhere at the center of my conscious I feel isolated and rejected. It's complicated. It's complicated. It's complicated.     

  For those in the back I will say it for the first and last time: I am celibate. It has been this way for ten years. And I don't plan on having things any other way. Women born between the years 1990 to 1999 are attractive but they lack femininity, class, and etiquette. On the other hand, older women put on the right clothes and wear the perfect scents. A young woman can glance at me and my stomach will turn. Just by smiling at me an older woman fills me up with joy. By the end of the day this is my truth. It's complicated. It's complicate. It's complicated.  

  90% of the music that is out there today I barely listen to. Reasons vary from the message to the production. In my opinion modern music is manufactured and everyone sounds the same. I like Jazz/Jazz Fusion. The music I listen to doesn't have words or chorus lines. It's complicated. It's complicated. It's complicated.   

  Growing up in the inner-city I was taught that liberals are the ones who wear the capes while the conservatives are the villains with the cigars in their mouths. The lines are often blurry as we determine who is for us and who is against us. Oligarchs rule both sides of the aisle. The fox or the wolf. The donkey or the elephant. Either way nothing we ever change for us. It's complicated. It's complicated. It's complicated.     

  At my age I am at a point where goals have been set before me. I am only thirty and I have learned so much you would think I was sixty. People don't understand me because they don't know the assignment God has on my life. The old Malcolm is long gone and that comes with jealousy and envy. No matter how much good you do in this life you will still have to deal with critics. It's complicated. It's complicated. It's complicated.     

  Kendrick Lamar's Super Bowl Halftime Show during its fifty-ninth showcasing was a performance of complexity. Recorded live on millions of televisions across the world symbols of America's founding, progress, and plight were on full display. The crowd gave mix reviews. President Trump was in the VIP section deep in his thoughts. I guess everything isn't complicated after all. It is what it is.