Ambitions & Responsibilities

 

  Born the oldest of three comes with its burdens. It was at eighteen when I came to this realization. Juggling academics and household duties was once a hazardous chore. Not to say that I didn't mature or learn about myself. But they were experiences that I wished I had experienced. The best analogy I can use is that every day I wake up I am towing the line between Ambitions and responsibilities.    

  Ambitions are plenty for me. Whether it is working at a job in the middle of Manhattan. Publishing a New York Times bestseller. Having enough money to eat, wear, or buy what I want. Being able to live in my own home so I can go to and from as I please. Driving a black Tesla Model S to destinations of my desires. Prosperity that comes with serving the Lord with every atom of my being. Good health that comes with that comes with consistency as it regards to exercise and dieting. I am not asking for much. All I want is a chance to make my name great.     

  Responsibilities are many for me. I co-parent next to my mother. I help her with my special needs brother. When food needs to be cooked, I am the person that does it. Whenever dishes need to be washed, I am the person that gets it done. I have become the Vice President to my mother's Madame President. Although I am not enthusiastic about having a family of my own, I am proud to say that I stood by my mother. It is the least I can do for the woman that gave me life.    

  Balancing the two is a tiresome task. Seeing my peers getting their way in life while I am doing the right thing and struggling is a feeling I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. There are times when I feel as though I have nothing to show for being honorable to my mother and household. God had to check me about the distaste I had towards my duties. I was reminded that children are to honor their parents so days can be added to them. Therefore, scorn has been removed from my eyes, and the heaviness of life has left my heart.   

  Growing balls and developing hair under your chin is essential to coming up in this world. The decisions we make are like chess moves. Each decision has a cause and effect. It is our decisions that we make today that will shape our tomorrow. The results of these decisions are sometimes instant or gradual. Even when you make the wrong decisions accept the lessons that comes from them.   

  I have hope for our mothers. I have hope for our fathers. I have hope for our sisters. I have hope for our brothers. I even have hope that the New York Knicks will make it to the NBA Finals and take home the gold. I hope for unity and togetherness. I hope we all are placing our hope in the finished work of the cross.